pathetic.....this is what I feel right now. stuck in the place not belong to me, do the same boring job eveyday.

I want to have some changings, change my job, change where I live, meet some new friends, do things I've never done before.

I want people look at my eyes when they talk to me. I want people think of me when they have any gathering.

Every night, I dream that I was not me. I was another pretty, confident, talkative, smark girl who live in Japan or Korean,somewhere not in Hong Kong. I didn't have parents , but I did have a big brother who raised up me or loved me a lot.

I liked singing, hated sports, had a lot of friends. Everybody liked me.

I had my dream and I worked very hard to make it real.

And this is totally the opposite of what I am now.

Suddenly, I remember one thing that's really bothering me.  唉~~~small Yuen is one of my best friends, and sometimes, I do think she hates me a lot. Couple of weeks ago, I invited Bra, Dee, small Yuen and my beauty teacher to my beauty class. Bra was really nice to me, even though she knew I was not the best beauty consultant, but she did highly respect me.

On that day, I was nervous. Bra and I arrived quite early. Then we waited for Dee and small Yuen. On the phone, small Yuen said they were AT the Mok Kok Center, I told her how to go to where we were From Mok Kok Center. small Yuen didn't understand me. Finally, they found the place. And small Yuen kept complaining about it.

And we found that they were not AT Mok Kok Center. Then she should say they were near Mok Kok Center instend of saying they were At Mok Kok Center.

And look at her eyes , she really looks down upon me.

I was really upseted about it because I can remember when she was working in an insurance company, I didn't turn my nose up at her, so why are you doing this to me??? If you really think "beauty consultant" is not a proper job, you shouldn't have come to my beauty class at first, especially, to your close friends, you should at least, show some respect. I derserve a little more respect.

"Beauty Consultant" is only my part time job, if I don't do it , I wouldn't die. I wouldn't lie and do anything bad because of my part time job. As a close friend, I thought you should know me, at least, pretend you are.

The reason of being a "beauty consultant" is it does inspiring me, building me to be a more confident person.Perheps because the company is hold by christian and most of the beauty consulant are christian too.